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Been a long time since I wrote about my cOnfinement and nOw it’s over. Literally, a confinement of my own world. I seems to lost almost everything. I lost someone in my life so significantly and losing her makes me numbed. Regressing the day she passed was all that I do. How come tragedy conspired with her death?? was it really too late or things really has to be that way?? who to blame when all they thinking is me!! My welfare and my sanity. How in the world I planned so well, well in fact.. these are all be gone. It crumpled right into my face!! Nakedly I saw it running, so furious, so dreaded and so unimagining. Time has betrayed me. It never gives me time even to contemplate. Stolen to me by her preying dreaded disease.

Where in the world I will find the cure?? I climb mountain as high as the Everest or dip in the pacific when its freezingly high? Anywhere I go, it seems to have no cure. Why? time and people has conspired. They all make me numbed,dumbed and doomed!! Perhaps, the most idiotic sheep in the fields. Running just like the other but no direction at all. They let me think that the boat is still sailing inspite of the odds. Not knowing I am stirring a ship that has been wrecked a long time ago. I was betrayed and I cant blamed them for all they think that is the most prudent way to handle the situation.

Perhaps, may be, I dont really know if they are right? May be the best way to ease a pain? they’re the most significant persons in my life and who I am to question their sobriety in handling the situation.