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You can
call me a pro in taking the Bar Exams and as of now, a legit mem of Flankers of
the Bar.

Congratulations
to those who made it!!! I envy you guys… now you’re reaping the ashes that most
of us are trying to burn. Whoa! 

Gone were
the days that you almost lost your sanity in thinking the right and most
effective ways to pass the bar.

Gone were
the days that you almost think of ozterising your books so that you wont forget
the requisites, there article/s numbers, the days, the penalties and the
unknowns. Haha!!

Gone were
the days that even at your most sacred rest… sleeping, you dreamt or thought
that you’re still reading or worst!!! Seeing your prof yelling?! Or worser (?,
if theirs a word) seeing the examiner correcting your paper sheets giving you a
49 grade! ( pucha.. pokemon! Buhay ka pa?!!) or worster!!! Feeling, predicting,
hunching, got feel, or knowing that you didn’t make it. What a realization, coming
too late when all the horses died. (my song for the chairman of the bar and the
examiners ==” Tattooed on my mind” spend too much time thinking of you coz I
can’t get you out of my dreams….. tell me you feel the same way coz I cant get
you out of my dream and now I cursed you for being so sweet and so kind!
Haha..)

Gone were
the days when you have to be away with your family, isolated to some unhealthy
friends to be with, away from your seasonal and not changing and still self
centered boy/girlfriend of yours but still enjoy his/her company but have to
decide to take sometime off for 6 months (haha!! Kilala ko eto ah?!). Away from
your relatives whose enjoying their summer vacation in bora!! Sending their MMS
with a caption “wish

ur

hir caz!”ahu!!!!

Gone were
the days when you have to take injection/s for flu, cough at kung anu ano
pang injections yan. If there’s a Cecon or Redbull injection out
available in the market, I gladly take it. Oh!! Forgot about the Dentist visit before the review proper ( ask the
Dentist to cement the hole in your teeth properly or better yet, ask for sweet
endurance enhancement if your teeth are less of calcium. This might help incase you forgot brushing
you teeth. Hehe!). And if your heart is weak just as mine, pa ECG ka!( Baka di
ka abutin as your vessel disintegrate in high blood pressure)

Gone were
the days that you have to hide from friends and relatives that you are
reviewing. Telling them that you got a
new job that requires your time that’s why you missed some important events in
the family. And when asked about your
job? (Sa kagulatan… ) “ taga bigay po ng toll card sa NLEX”! (hay.. pokemon).

Gone were
the days that you have to find a house nearby

La Salle

.
Trying to be humble leaving in a one bedroom, size like a pig house while being
away from the comfort of your castle bedroom. ( lucky for me, I got the sun
flower house at Hardin outside UP!)

Gone are
the days that you have to budget your very much allotted, compartalized
money. Money for Xerox in political,
labor etc., money for the rent, laundry, gas, toll, food, vitamins, additional
books and date syempre!haha…

Gone were
the days of the nthless visits to Starbucks, drinking grande café macchiato.
After six months, you discovered sobra ka na palang nerbioso sa kakainom ng
kape!!haha.

Gone is
the day that you will experience seeing a first time Bar Examinee very nervous,
wanting to blow (and yeh!! Sa pila palang…nagsusuka na.), experiencing
constipation ( oh Mum did send me isang piling na saging in the Hotel), and the
feeling of di mawaring (batangas lingo!?) natatae, nahihilo, at nasusuka. (
first day jitter?) oh almost forgot, ang mapanirang puring di matangal-tangal
na balakubak sa ulo (ng ulo natin at not the head which has his own mind,get?). This sucks!! I seek the advised of the
dermatologist with this…. STRESS related daw, baka sa pagmamadali di
nababanlawan ng husto!).

Gone is
the day that you wanted to kill your classmate who cannot afford to be humble
at least and shot her mouth in bragging that the questions are easy where in
fact, you almost collapsed in thinking how to answer it. Nag nose bleed ka pa
tapos sya nagduduyan sa kayabangan na madali and sometimes sasabihan ka pa na
…”ano dimo nasagot e tinuro yan ng prof natin, anu ka ba?? Haha!! Poor you. You
just lose your confidence at the first glance on the arrogance of your
classmate who is trying to compete with you during your law school days. Buti na lang at the end of the day, nangamote
ka rin! (hayop ka…haha!)

Gone will
be the day that you will experience that your dream of becoming a lawyer
crumpled right into you face because right in your table, you cannot think of a
decent answer to the question except the repetition of the General Rule that
Taxation is the lifeline of the government. (ayun! Nagdugo rin grade ko sa
tax.) Kahit extend pa ng alas dose ulet ng medaling araw… ala na talaga ako
maalaala except the song… maalaala mo kaya!

Gone will
be the last day of splash and lush of the champagne and San Mig lights on your
head (pokemon! Mapapasma ulo ko!!). The
pictures as if your victorious, the singing of the Fraternity Anthem, the
cheering and the flowers sent by unknown and surfacing of your seasonal, ever
changing and still self centered boyfriend asking you to have dinner by the bay
at your expense kasi kulang budget nya!!! Ngeeeehhhh! Dapat sa kanya nilulunod.

Gone were
the days next after the last Sunday of anxiety and the never knowing what to do
after. Applying for a job or just wait
for the result or be a bum or what?

Now, gone
are these days for them because they are now a lawyer. This I think will be experienced still by me
( some for others are story of my friends ). The anxiety will still be high for I have chosen a path that requires my
qualifications rather than my being. Becoming a lawyer before 2010 is the best deal of all. To date, I have applied for 3 times for same
key position in different companies and I am almost there, one notched, one
step, only one yes and I am IN. Too bad,
with all these companies I have applied for, none of them hire me. Answer, I am overqualified to the position or
too young to be a Labor Manager. Shit!!
What I only wish for is to have a job so that I could support myself in my
review in the same way that I will not ask my parents too much for my
review. It all boils to money. Wanting and needing money.

The last
time I took the Bar Exam is last 2006. I
don’t know but faith wasn’t my side still. My Mum was diagnosed to have a Cancer while I am reviewing. 21 days after, my Mum retires from her
life. She died while I was sleeping in
the house because of tired eyes. I come
to know her death four days after. I was
on my second Sunday of my exams, my friends are awaiting for me to withdraw
then. Honestly, I don’t know if my mind
is still working then? The whole situation makes me numbed. I don’t know the difference between right or
wrong, all that I know is that I am very much hurt. What I wanted then is to find the immediate
remedy for that pain that I am harboring or else.. I die in a natural way. Perhaps more that I wanted to hold on with my
sanity first. After the last Sunday of my exam, I never rush back home for I
know a cold body is waiting for me to burry. I wanted to have sometime, I am not afraid to face my mum in her last
bed, I am just too lonely to see and know that after will be departed with her
physically. Six feet under the ground
will be my mum’s resting place and six feet over is us, me.

After
that, the 2006 result comes out and am one of those who didn’t make it. Days after, I lost election. I wanted to sing” If I could change the
world”! Oh dear Lord!! Give my sanity back. A week after, I am working, months
after I resigned. It’s a doctors’ plea if I wanted to live more. Now, here writing. The result of the 2007 is quite amazing and
exceptionally strict. Lowering the DQ
for 40 is degrading for me as a graduate of law. The probability is that there are scores
which are 39 below! Been a flunker but my DQ is 49! The least that I got.
Neither that I am proud of it but at least, it’s over my heart that will not
make my heart stop beating. For whatever
reason does the examiner has, it’s entirely his discretion. You’re the boss, the lord, the master, the
guru (lahat na). I learned my wisdom of loyalty basically in law school ( it’s
like hear no evil, see no evil!). I am
just appealing to the compassion of the examiner. Please leave flunkers some
space of confidence and be back not with vengeance but with a one common goal…… to be a Lawyer.

 

 

Follow your dream…

Take one step at a time

And don’t settle for less,

 

Follow your dream..

If you stumble, don’t stop

And lose sigh of your goal,

press on to the top.

For only on top

Can we see the whole view,

Can we see what we’ve done

And what we can do,

Can we then have the vision

To seek something new..

Perseverance is the investment.

 Success is the return.

I have learned that success

Is to be measured not so much by the position

That one has reached in life

As the obstacles

Which he overcome

While trying to succed.